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Well, it's that time of year again...


On the first topic there, I am sooo burnt out at this point... I have a term paper to finish titled "Standardization and Dialects: A Japanese Perspective" that I really am super into as a topic but I'm just dead. And I have my hardest final tomorrow, and I've hardly studied for it so far because of the paper... so consider this a little study break to release some steam I guess!

As for the second topic... it continues to baffle me. Every year from December 1st to March 31st I feel a consistent longing to go back to my hometown.

There are SO many reasons not to. Let me count the ways:

1) Um, the economy?
2) When was the last time you heard of the distinct Japan-Buffalo relationship for me to put my Japanese to use for?
3) There is NOTHING THERE for me. Most of my family doesn't even live in Buffalo proper anymore.
4) Kenmore and Tonawanda, the neighborhoods I lived in, aren't actually that great. In fact, they're pretty shitty.
5) I actually kind of don't like driving in Buffalo at all. I'm just not familiar with it.
6) It's expensive
7) Psychologically speaking, I probably should just move on with my life

HOWEVER I recently was checking out grad schools and of course had to check out SUNY Buffalo. Not only do they have a fabulous linguistics program that my linguistics hero, a man who has done extensive research on the Buffalo dialect, worked for BUT they also will probably pay for me to go there if I teach Japanese.

So. Maybe there's something for me in Buffalo after all. It's a secret dream of mine to do some extensive research on the Buffalo dialect; it's fascinated me ever since I moved from Toledo and discovered I had one. To be able to study Japanese, Japanese linguistics, and dialectology all at the same place? Well... it's too good to pass up...

So maybe that's why this feeling is hitting me again. Also we might go to NY for New Year's this year, and that makes me nostalgic, too, because we haven't been for New Year's in a loooooooooong time....

Ughhh this feeling. It's not like S.A.D. persay. More like selective homesickness.